fatima

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Seems I haven't made an entry in 9 months, not to mention not having commented on anyone else's since then...

The thing is I still look through my friends page almost every day (though I haven't checked if everyone has unfriended me for not showing signs of life)... This goes especially for you, Marjo! I'm lazy and horrible for not commenting, but I check your entries 8(




---yes, I did also want to not have a meme as the most recent thing posted.
fatima

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1. Provide a picture and name of 3 people
2. Label which you would Marry, Fuck, and Kill
3. Comment to this and I will give you 3 people
4. Post this meme with your answers

Gara (merry), Reita (gazette) and Satoshi (girugamesh) from ekucbbw

I first thought I'd have a problem between the first two, but then I realized I don't even have to think about it...

Marry... GARA.
Just look at him. He's perfect. (the sex is included in the marriage part of this deal, of course :D)



I'm so mad I don't get to see them live because he got injured, but I hope he gets better soon o__o

Fuck... Reita.
As this would never happen anyway, if it did I'd prefer to be a guy and on top. Being fucked by Reita just doesn't seem half as hot 8D (not that I'd say no though...)



And I'd have to kill Satoshi. I'm just not a huge fan of him, so no regrets :D
Though endorphin-murder would be the only correct course of action here.






First post in ages foooo!
fatima

Erroll

I have to share a story about my bus ride home the other day; it just made me so happy, and I want to be sure to remember it.


So I got on the bus in Kamppi, and there was this disabled man in the front seat, behind the driver. I saw people avoiding the seat I always take, the front seat behind the door, across the isle from the man. I was happy to get "my seat", anyway, and I kind of wanted to talk to the guy, since he seemed sweet. He looked pretty normal, he just kept drooling all the time, but I saw this hippie coming on to the bus, who first talked to the bus driver and then the guy (in Swedish), and he seemed to understand everything he said just fine, he just couldn't talk.

So anyway I sat bored listening to music for the first half of the ride, and then this middle aged lady came on to the bus, and she was smiling so brightly that she instantly made me grin like a maniac (not even the roadkill animals killed my mood, and there are loads of them this time of year). People should smile more, just that one smile made me so much happier!

Anyway, I started thinking about leaving a note or something for the next person to sit there to find, and then I realized I could make an origami crane, since they bring good luck and all. Then I figured I'd make one for the disabled man sitting next to me, and I got all excited with the idea. (I'm such a kid..)
Anyway, I tore up a piece of notebook paper for the lack of anything better, and started folding. The guy immediately noticed it and started watching me, all excited about it too. I finished the bird and handed it to him, and his grin looked like it was about to split his face in two, and then he showed me that he would like to put a string on the bird and hang it from the roof. I didn't have any though, but I showed him I understood, and just that made him happy. Then he started digging his pockets for his ID, and showed me his name in it, and then pointed at himself to make sure I understood. I'd just had my Swedish exam so I was happy to get to use it too; I told him my name too. Then he tried to put the crane on the table in front of him, and after dropping it once, got it to stay there, then he just smiled at me and kept looking at it for a good while.

Afterwards my elementary school's Russian teacher came on the bus, and sat next to me. I didn't take her class though, so she didn't recognize me. She'd been sitting there for a few minutes when the man signaled for her to look and showed her the crane, pointing at me. She said it's pretty, and I explained to her that he was trying to tell her I made it. He just nodded at that.

When I left he bus he kept smiling at me and waved goodbye, I told him and the others to have a nice weekend (in Swedish), and went home. (where I talked about him to anyone who would listen...)


I don't know if this comes off even half as endearing as he was, but it's the most wonderful feeling in the world to know you've made someone happy, even though it was such a little thing.
I hope he found his string ♥
fatima

stuff + meme

Aaadadaa.

So long, my beloved three day weekends >>

I went to Girls League Saturday, the first dance I've ever been to :)
I had a surprisingly good time, and managed the whole three hours of dancing pretty much nonstop in my (beautiful) high heels.


Meme #128 from fonulyn :D


1.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Special:Random <------ The first article title on the page is the name of your band.
2.
http://www.quotationspage.com/random.php3 <------ The last four words of the very last quote is the title of your album.
3.
http://www.flickr.com/explore/interesting/7days/ <------ The third picture, no matter what it is, will be your album cover.
4. Use your graphics program of choice to throw them together, and post the result.

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fatima

Another music meme

1. Post the names of 20 of your favorite bands/musicians.
2. See who can guess which is your favorite song by each.
3. Once someone guesses right, bold that row and include the song.

1. Rentrer en Soi /3 to go Protoplasm, Karasu iro no Taiji/ funkyasscartoon
2. MUCC /2 to go FUZZ/ fonulyn
3. Audioslave I'm the Highway/ arachnexx
4. The Killers /one to go Romeo and Juliet/ arachnexx
5. BUCK-TICK Kimi no Vanilla (live)/ arachnexx
6. Dir en grey The Pledge/ fonulyn
7. Regina Spektor /3
8. D'espairsRay Tainted World/ arachnexx
9. Gazette
10. Guniw Tools
11. Plastic Tree Namida Drop/ arachnexx
12. Love Psychedelico
13. ABBA /one to go Dancing Queen/ fonulyn
14. Seether
15. Nirvana
16. Sel'm
17. Klaxons
18. Kra Artman/ funkyasscartoon
19. exist†trace Judea/ arachnexx
20. Red Hot Chili Peppers

guess my favorite song(s) out of Sweeney Todd :D
fatima

NEW YEAR IS HEAR

HAPPY NEWYARR EVEERIBODI! <3



In remembrance of baby 2007...

funnest event--> Class trip to Visby/ Anti Feminism&Hagakure concert in January/ Mid-summerfest in Saari or Nini's summerhouse(island)/ Ruisrock festival/ MUCC *___*/ Nini's visit
greatest accomplishment--> hmm, good report card -> good high school :)
best 'change'--> Nini is happier now I think <3
new friend-->Frances, (Lexi, Alec & Daniel)(and a lot of others too though) <3

Since I can't think of more stuff like that, time for (hoorah) 'material best's'

(lately I'm not that much into new western music (Regina! Audioslave!), just older stuff, so quite some jrawk in order..)
best song --> FUZZ by MUCC. Feel the awesome. (alas, in M4a, I apologise :/)
best album--> uhhh... The Marrow of a Bone by Dir en grey, in the end. Repetition of boring(ish) screaming and the best songs ever in a neat package, it takes the cake. All hail The Pledge. (also M4a)
best concert--> I had the most fun probably at Anti FeminismxHagakure in Helsinki, the 20th of January if I'm not mistaken :D MUCC was awesome though, the set list, the performance, meeting them... T____T<3
as for non-music...
best book--> I have to admit this, I don't think I read any other new books than the last Harry Potter XD and now that I realize that, my new year's promise is to read more books :D But I liked it so it would probably have been the one anyway.
best trip--> Class trip to Visby. After 7 years of togetherness as a class everyone knew eachother (if a bit too) well, it was fun, well organized, all in all a great success. I never posted the pictures >>
best movie--> Oh god :D I've seen so many this year. Atonement perhaps. Or then some other one that I just forget x) It was good anyway.
best actor--> Hard, hard. I think James McAvoy in Becoming Jane.
best actress--> Helena Bonham Carter in Sweeney Todd. <3 Cate Blanchett was good in Elizabeth.
best food--> Ooh sushi at Kinya. Or my uncle's grill food. His food wins most good restaurants hands down.
best article of clothing--> (yes it is important! 8D) My every not-too-cold-weather jacket (my mums if you want to rakastella pilkkua), complete with green and white patterns and a Youssou N'Dour text on the collar/hood x)But as it is eight years old, from an africa-store in Holland where we then resided, the best new article of clothing is probably my Sana (Thee Out Mods) shirt. It is beautifulllll. (http://www.7samurai.us/myspace/T_shirts_web_sample.gif , the one on the right)
best peace of art (well, 'art' anyway) I created My productivity gets poorer with the years :D
I drew a very nice Karyu that was left incomplete as Nini got it when I moved to CA.
best place to visit--> Claremont :D I like our little hometown for the year.
best store--> KENTA'S, no contest. A store in Claremont that sells Japanese stuff you don't really need for anything, the saleslady Cary is wonderful :D We go there with Frances and literally spend hours chatting away with Cary. You need to go if you're ever in the area, the stuff is also fun and with a great value, decently low prices.
best looking guy--> Guh, hard. There's this Korean (?) guy at our school, there is HIZUMI IN PERSON WITHOUT MAKE UP IN ALL HIS FRECKLED GLORY. Guess Hizumi won XD
best looking gal--> A hint less hard. Eva Green. (*worship*)
best sport--> Finnish baseball yay :D
best comic--> I didn't read all that many new things, so you'll get old stuff.. The manga Gravitation, and of course the genious of Fat Freddy's cat and The Fabulous Furry Freak Brothers. If you haven't heard of them you are missing out on a lot.
best fanfic--> Several deserve the title, but most of all I think it's Cybele's If You Are Prepared series, especially Come What May, the last part. (hp fandom, HP/SS) It is genious, it is credible all the way, it is sad and sadly romantic, it is beautifully written; go enjoy.
best tv show-->Project Runway is what I've been watching the most, and of course good ol' South Park.
best magazine--> FRUiTS
best new posession-->(DESPA'S AUTOGRAPHS ON MY BAG/ KARYU'S GUITAR PICK) A Mac laptop. <3


I'm tired right now so I'll go to sleep and remember all that I've left out tomorrow.

Good night loves, Good morning 2008!

Cliche!

Hoorah!

Buhbye!


wii!
(oh shut up about nintendo, I mean it as in whee)
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fatima

How do I do?

I thought I'd make an actual, you know, post today.
About what's going on in my life, or has been for the last fall, for later reference & such.

So, I've finally seemed to make some friends, always good. As in, real friends instead of people I see before PE and have a hard time coming up with things to talk about for five minutes.
I ate with this girl from Iceland, Raven, for the first three or so months. On retrospect, it is sort of unfortunate I even met her, by coincidence, in the library. We never 'clicked', but we had an okay time together, and no one else to not look lonely with. One week then, I went to Seattle, she ate with another group than with whom we used to eat with, and when I came back, it was immediately clear they didn't require my company, but she still ate with me, until this day I saw her coming toward me with her friends, and then I looked away for a second, saw them walking in the opposite direction; away from me. The thing I loved about it was that her new friend, Alexandra, in my English class, turned around and smiled to me, the most artificial smile ever. I'd likely have to punch her if she decided to talk to me now.
Anyway, ohh the dramaz.

I found a group despite my losing at mingling with groups, and a few actual friends, which is nice. I still barely go out with people, but maybe someday now.
I'm still none the wiser with how to deal with suicidal people, or depressed people, and I've been dealing with them , however unwittingly, since I was barely six. I hope I've done something right, and I can do something for these people too. It's so great to see someone cares for me :)

My brothers, especially the pair of them, have made the time here an awful lot easier. The baby brightens every single day of mine. Everyone thinks now that there's him I see what babies are like and will never want any of my own; on the contrary really, I don't want him to grow up and when he does I want to have one or two or six of my own.
The older one has always been great, he can make me laugh any time of any day of any season. He is the dearest boy.

The weird thing, unfortunately for me, in my family, is that everyone else takes life a hint too seriously, they stress a bit much and get sad and upset a bit easily. I guess I shouldn't complain, they are great, and not even bad with this, but I'm careless up to the point it's probably unhealthy and I could be well compared to the manga characters with mysterious pasts that don't feel anything, despite my not being a beautiful boy or having a mysterious past. I feel happiness sometimes, surprised joy fairly often, I am content most the time, but generally I am indifferent, so indifferent. It doesn't bother me because I cannot bother to care.

Nini was here from December the 3rd to December the 13th. It was great, it was just like a normal ten days, except a lot more fun, she is so like a sister to me her being here just felt like home was a bit better.
It felt like instead of not having seen her in four(ish) months I had been gone for a few weeks. I wonder how the next eight will pass.

I have straight A's when my grades don't count for anything. I've always known somewhere inside I'm a nerd, now that's been proven true. I'll go mista aita on matalin as long as I do the best I know I could.

I'm trying out for the school softball team. I hope I'll make it; it's fun, and I'm finally excersizing.

We're going to Hawaii after new year's. I cannot comprehend we are going; I cannot comprehend 2007 came and went so quick. I blame the baby, and moving.

Everyone needs to listen to Oedipus by Regina Spektor. And other old songs by her, they are original, beautiful, genious.
fatima

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I stole from nymphetamosa


1. Smoked. [x]
2. Consumed alcohol. [x]
3. Slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex. [x]
4. Slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex. [x]
5. Kissed someone of the same sex. [] (although my friend claims she has kissed me, but I don't remember)
6. Had sex. [ ]
7. Had someone in your room other than family. [x]
8. Watched porn. [x]
9. Bought porn. [ ]
10. Done drugs. [ ]
TOTAL SO FAR: 6

1. Taken painkillers. [x]
2. Taken someone else's prescription medicine. []
3. Lied to your parents. [x]
4. Lied to a friend. [x]
5. Been to rehab. [ ]
6. Done something illegal. [x]
7. Cut yourself. [x] sort of, and non of the angst cutting thing, I just like it x)
8. Hurt someone. [x]
9. Been to a club. [x]
10. Seen someone die.[ ] I've seen a very recently drowned person?
TOTAL SO FAR: 13

1. Missed curfew. [x]
2. Stayed out all night. [ ]
3. Eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself. [x]
4. Been to a therapist. [ ]
5. Snuck out of the house. [x]
6. Dyed your hair. [x]
7. Received a ticket. [ ]
8. Been in an accident. [ ]
9. Wished someone to die. [ ]
10. Been to a bar.[x]
TOTAL SO FAR: 18

1. Been to a wild party. [ ]
2. Been to a Mardi Gras parade. [ ]
3. Drank more than four beers in a night. [ ]
4. Had a spring break in Florida. [ ]
5. Sniffed anything. [x]
6. Wore black nail polish. [x]
7. Wore arm bands. [x]
8. Wore t-shirts with band names. [x]
9. Listened to rap. [x]
10. Owned a 50 Cent CD. [ ]
TOTAL SO FAR: 23

1. Dressed Gothic. [ ]
2. Dressed prep.[x]
3. Dressed punk. [ ]
4. Dressed grunge. [ ]
5. Stole something. [x]
6. Been too drunk to remember anything. [ ]
7. Blacked out. [x]
8. Fainted. [x]
9. Had a crush on a neighbor. [x]
TOTAL SO FAR: 28

1. Snuck into someone else's room. [x]
2. Had a crush on your friend. [x]
3. Been to a concert. [x]
4. Dry-humped someone. [x]
5. Been called a slut. [x]
6. Called someone a slut. [x]
7. Installed speakers in your car.[ ]
8. Broken a mirror. [ ]
9. Showered at someone of the opposites sex's house. [ ]
10. Brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush. [x]
TOTAL SO FAR: 35

1. Consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper. [ ]
2. Seen an R-rated movie in theater. [x]
3. Cruised the mall. [x]
4. Skipped school. [ ] to go quee for a concert, a few times, but with teacher's permission
5. Had surgery. [xxx] DD:
6. Had an injury. [x]
7. Gone to court. [ ]
8. Walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping. [ ]
9. Caught something on fire. [x]
10. Lied about your age. [x]
TOTAL SO FAR: 41


1. Owned/rented an apartment.[ ]
2. Broke the law in the police's presence. [ ]
3. Made out with someone who had a gf/bf. [ ]
4. Got in trouble with the police. [ ]
5. Talked to a stranger. [x]
6. Hugged a stranger. [x]
7. Kissed a stranger. [ ]
8. Rode in the car with a stranger. [ ]
9. Been harassed. [x]
10. Been verbally harassed. [x]
TOTAL SO FAR: 45

1. Met face-to-face with someone you met online. [ ]
2. Stayed online for 5 hours straight. [x]
3. Talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight. [ ]
4. Watched TV for 5 hours straight. [x]
5. Been to a fair. [x]
6. Been called a bad influence. [x]
7. Drink and drive. [ ]
8. Prank-called someone. [x]
9. Laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex. [x]
10. Cheated on a test. [x]
TOTAL SO FAR: 52

-If You Have Less Then 10.. [I'm a Goody Goody.]
-If You Have More Than 10.. [I'm still a goody goody.]
-If You Have more Than 20.. [I'm average.]
-If You Have More Than 30.. [I'm a bad kid.]
-If You have more than 40.. [I'm a very bad influence.]
-If You Have more than 50.. [I'm a horrible person.]

I'm a horrible person, obviously :''D These tests make so much out of small things. I'm really a straight A's getting teacher's almost pet who hasn't even kissed anybody. And I didn't choose to have surgery, dammit :D
(any of the times >>)
fatima

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I want people to be happier. I also want more clam chowder. I fell in love with it today, GOSH IT IS GOOD.
And then I want a lot more, like some magazines, NIIINII, to have my homework done, to have some life to actually post about, and to go home and to stay, to have inspiration for drawing more often, to actually do it, to have a holiday.

It's halloween soon. I'm gonna be candy.


I bought a cherrybag. The baby isn't going to sleep.
Love you all.
My stomach hurts and my throat.
( <3)
fatima

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Dad is at home (homehome, not CA-home) and he showed us video, and I need to get back there. Ten months to go...

I don't need to put any effort into it, and after two months of being away, I can smell how my bed smelt (nothing specific, just kinda dusty cloth). I can feel the surface of our kitchen counters under my palms whenever I want to.

I never realized it before. Now all I want to do is press my head into my bedcovers and open the window above, and run my hands along the wall with the ripped-out paint in the places tape has been in.


Home sweet home.