stand alone and greet the coming light

3:37pm: Seems I haven't made an entry in 9 months, not to mention not having commented on anyone else's since then...

The thing is I still look through my friends page almost every day (though I haven't checked if everyone has unfriended me for not showing signs of life)... This goes especially for you, Marjo! I'm lazy and horrible for not commenting, but I check your entries 8(




---yes, I did also want to not have a meme as the most recent thing posted.

9:20pm: 1. Provide a picture and name of 3 people
2. Label which you would Marry, Fuck, and Kill
3. Comment to this and I will give you 3 people
4. Post this meme with your answers

Gara (merry), Reita (gazette) and Satoshi (girugamesh) from ekucbbw

I first thought I'd have a problem between the first two, but then I realized I don't even have to think about it...

Marry... GARA.
Just look at him. He's perfect. (the sex is included in the marriage part of this deal, of course :D)



I'm so mad I don't get to see them live because he got injured, but I hope he gets better soon o__o

Fuck... Reita.
As this would never happen anyway, if it did I'd prefer to be a guy and on top. Being fucked by Reita just doesn't seem half as hot 8D (not that I'd say no though...)



And I'd have to kill Satoshi. I'm just not a huge fan of him, so no regrets :D
Though endorphin-murder would be the only correct course of action here.






First post in ages foooo!

8:56pm: Erroll
I have to share a story about my bus ride home the other day; it just made me so happy, and I want to be sure to remember it.


So I got on the bus in Kamppi, and there was this disabled man in the front seat, behind the driver. I saw people avoiding the seat I always take, the front seat behind the door, across the isle from the man. I was happy to get "my seat", anyway, and I kind of wanted to talk to the guy, since he seemed sweet. He looked pretty normal, he just kept drooling all the time, but I saw this hippie coming on to the bus, who first talked to the bus driver and then the guy (in Swedish), and he seemed to understand everything he said just fine, he just couldn't talk.

So anyway I sat bored listening to music for the first half of the ride, and then this middle aged lady came on to the bus, and she was smiling so brightly that she instantly made me grin like a maniac (not even the roadkill animals killed my mood, and there are loads of them this time of year). People should smile more, just that one smile made me so much happier!

Anyway, I started thinking about leaving a note or something for the next person to sit there to find, and then I realized I could make an origami crane, since they bring good luck and all. Then I figured I'd make one for the disabled man sitting next to me, and I got all excited with the idea. (I'm such a kid..)
Anyway, I tore up a piece of notebook paper for the lack of anything better, and started folding. The guy immediately noticed it and started watching me, all excited about it too. I finished the bird and handed it to him, and his grin looked like it was about to split his face in two, and then he showed me that he would like to put a string on the bird and hang it from the roof. I didn't have any though, but I showed him I understood, and just that made him happy. Then he started digging his pockets for his ID, and showed me his name in it, and then pointed at himself to make sure I understood. I'd just had my Swedish exam so I was happy to get to use it too; I told him my name too. Then he tried to put the crane on the table in front of him, and after dropping it once, got it to stay there, then he just smiled at me and kept looking at it for a good while.

Afterwards my elementary school's Russian teacher came on the bus, and sat next to me. I didn't take her class though, so she didn't recognize me. She'd been sitting there for a few minutes when the man signaled for her to look and showed her the crane, pointing at me. She said it's pretty, and I explained to her that he was trying to tell her I made it. He just nodded at that.

When I left he bus he kept smiling at me and waved goodbye, I told him and the others to have a nice weekend (in Swedish), and went home. (where I talked about him to anyone who would listen...)


I don't know if this comes off even half as endearing as he was, but it's the most wonderful feeling in the world to know you've made someone happy, even though it was such a little thing.
I hope he found his string ♥

9:02pm: stuff + meme
Aaadadaa.

So long, my beloved three day weekends >>

I went to Girls League Saturday, the first dance I've ever been to :)
I had a surprisingly good time, and managed the whole three hours of dancing pretty much nonstop in my (beautiful) high heels.


Meme #128 from fonulyn :D


1.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Special:Random <------ The first article title on the page is the name of your band.
2.
http://www.quotationspage.com/random.php3 <------ The last four words of the very last quote is the title of your album.
3.
http://www.flickr.com/explore/interesting/7days/ <------ The third picture, no matter what it is, will be your album cover.
4. Use your graphics program of choice to throw them together, and post the result.

( covers )

1:25pm: Another music meme
1. Post the names of 20 of your favorite bands/musicians.
2. See who can guess which is your favorite song by each.
3. Once someone guesses right, bold that row and include the song.

1. Rentrer en Soi /3 to go Protoplasm, Karasu iro no Taiji/ funkyasscartoon
2. MUCC /2 to go FUZZ/ fonulyn
3. Audioslave I'm the Highway/ arachnexx
4. The Killers /one to go Romeo and Juliet/ arachnexx
5. BUCK-TICK Kimi no Vanilla (live)/ arachnexx
6. Dir en grey The Pledge/ fonulyn
7. Regina Spektor /3
8. D'espairsRay Tainted World/ arachnexx
9. Gazette
10. Guniw Tools
11. Plastic Tree Namida Drop/ arachnexx
12. Love Psychedelico
13. ABBA /one to go Dancing Queen/ fonulyn
14. Seether
15. Nirvana
16. Sel'm
17. Klaxons
18. Kra Artman/ funkyasscartoon
19. exist†trace Judea/ arachnexx
20. Red Hot Chili Peppers

guess my favorite song(s) out of Sweeney Todd :D

2:07am: NEW YEAR IS HEAR
HAPPY NEWYARR EVEERIBODI! <3



In remembrance of baby 2007...

funnest event--> Class trip to Visby/ Anti Feminism&Hagakure concert in January/ Mid-summerfest in Saari or Nini's summerhouse(island)/ Ruisrock festival/ MUCC *___*/ Nini's visit
greatest accomplishment--> hmm, good report card -> good high school :)
best 'change'--> Nini is happier now I think <3
new friend-->Frances, (Lexi, Alec & Daniel)(and a lot of others too though) <3

Since I can't think of more stuff like that, time for (hoorah) 'material best's'

(lately I'm not that much into new western music (Regina! Audioslave!), just older stuff, so quite some jrawk in order..)
best song --> FUZZ by MUCC. Feel the awesome. (alas, in M4a, I apologise :/)
best album--> uhhh... The Marrow of a Bone by Dir en grey, in the end. Repetition of boring(ish) screaming and the best songs ever in a neat package, it takes the cake. All hail The Pledge. (also M4a)
best concert--> I had the most fun probably at Anti FeminismxHagakure in Helsinki, the 20th of January if I'm not mistaken :D MUCC was awesome though, the set list, the performance, meeting them... T____T<3
as for non-music...
best book--> I have to admit this, I don't think I read any other new books than the last Harry Potter XD and now that I realize that, my new year's promise is to read more books :D But I liked it so it would probably have been the one anyway.
best trip--> Class trip to Visby. After 7 years of togetherness as a class everyone knew eachother (if a bit too) well, it was fun, well organized, all in all a great success. I never posted the pictures >>
best movie--> Oh god :D I've seen so many this year. Atonement perhaps. Or then some other one that I just forget x) It was good anyway.
best actor--> Hard, hard. I think James McAvoy in Becoming Jane.
best actress--> Helena Bonham Carter in Sweeney Todd. <3 Cate Blanchett was good in Elizabeth.
best food--> Ooh sushi at Kinya. Or my uncle's grill food. His food wins most good restaurants hands down.
best article of clothing--> (yes it is important! 8D) My every not-too-cold-weather jacket (my mums if you want to rakastella pilkkua), complete with green and white patterns and a Youssou N'Dour text on the collar/hood x)But as it is eight years old, from an africa-store in Holland where we then resided, the best new article of clothing is probably my Sana (Thee Out Mods) shirt. It is beautifulllll. (http://www.7samurai.us/myspace/T_shirts_web_sample.gif , the one on the right)
best peace of art (well, 'art' anyway) I created My productivity gets poorer with the years :D
I drew a very nice Karyu that was left incomplete as Nini got it when I moved to CA.
best place to visit--> Claremont :D I like our little hometown for the year.
best store--> KENTA'S, no contest. A store in Claremont that sells Japanese stuff you don't really need for anything, the saleslady Cary is wonderful :D We go there with Frances and literally spend hours chatting away with Cary. You need to go if you're ever in the area, the stuff is also fun and with a great value, decently low prices.
best looking guy--> Guh, hard. There's this Korean (?) guy at our school, there is HIZUMI IN PERSON WITHOUT MAKE UP IN ALL HIS FRECKLED GLORY. Guess Hizumi won XD
best looking gal--> A hint less hard. Eva Green. (*worship*)
best sport--> Finnish baseball yay :D
best comic--> I didn't read all that many new things, so you'll get old stuff.. The manga Gravitation, and of course the genious of Fat Freddy's cat and The Fabulous Furry Freak Brothers. If you haven't heard of them you are missing out on a lot.
best fanfic--> Several deserve the title, but most of all I think it's Cybele's If You Are Prepared series, especially Come What May, the last part. (hp fandom, HP/SS) It is genious, it is credible all the way, it is sad and sadly romantic, it is beautifully written; go enjoy.
best tv show-->Project Runway is what I've been watching the most, and of course good ol' South Park.
best magazine--> FRUiTS
best new posession-->(DESPA'S AUTOGRAPHS ON MY BAG/ KARYU'S GUITAR PICK) A Mac laptop. <3


I'm tired right now so I'll go to sleep and remember all that I've left out tomorrow.

Good night loves, Good morning 2008!

Cliche!

Hoorah!

Buhbye!


wii!
(oh shut up about nintendo, I mean it as in whee)

12:46am: How do I do?
I thought I'd make an actual, you know, post today.
About what's going on in my life, or has been for the last fall, for later reference & such.

So, I've finally seemed to make some friends, always good. As in, real friends instead of people I see before PE and have a hard time coming up with things to talk about for five minutes.
I ate with this girl from Iceland, Raven, for the first three or so months. On retrospect, it is sort of unfortunate I even met her, by coincidence, in the library. We never 'clicked', but we had an okay time together, and no one else to not look lonely with. One week then, I went to Seattle, she ate with another group than with whom we used to eat with, and when I came back, it was immediately clear they didn't require my company, but she still ate with me, until this day I saw her coming toward me with her friends, and then I looked away for a second, saw them walking in the opposite direction; away from me. The thing I loved about it was that her new friend, Alexandra, in my English class, turned around and smiled to me, the most artificial smile ever. I'd likely have to punch her if she decided to talk to me now.
Anyway, ohh the dramaz.

I found a group despite my losing at mingling with groups, and a few actual friends, which is nice. I still barely go out with people, but maybe someday now.
I'm still none the wiser with how to deal with suicidal people, or depressed people, and I've been dealing with them , however unwittingly, since I was barely six. I hope I've done something right, and I can do something for these people too. It's so great to see someone cares for me :)

My brothers, especially the pair of them, have made the time here an awful lot easier. The baby brightens every single day of mine. Everyone thinks now that there's him I see what babies are like and will never want any of my own; on the contrary really, I don't want him to grow up and when he does I want to have one or two or six of my own.
The older one has always been great, he can make me laugh any time of any day of any season. He is the dearest boy.

The weird thing, unfortunately for me, in my family, is that everyone else takes life a hint too seriously, they stress a bit much and get sad and upset a bit easily. I guess I shouldn't complain, they are great, and not even bad with this, but I'm careless up to the point it's probably unhealthy and I could be well compared to the manga characters with mysterious pasts that don't feel anything, despite my not being a beautiful boy or having a mysterious past. I feel happiness sometimes, surprised joy fairly often, I am content most the time, but generally I am indifferent, so indifferent. It doesn't bother me because I cannot bother to care.

Nini was here from December the 3rd to December the 13th. It was great, it was just like a normal ten days, except a lot more fun, she is so like a sister to me her being here just felt like home was a bit better.
It felt like instead of not having seen her in four(ish) months I had been gone for a few weeks. I wonder how the next eight will pass.

I have straight A's when my grades don't count for anything. I've always known somewhere inside I'm a nerd, now that's been proven true. I'll go mista aita on matalin as long as I do the best I know I could.

I'm trying out for the school softball team. I hope I'll make it; it's fun, and I'm finally excersizing.

We're going to Hawaii after new year's. I cannot comprehend we are going; I cannot comprehend 2007 came and went so quick. I blame the baby, and moving.

Everyone needs to listen to Oedipus by Regina Spektor. And other old songs by her, they are original, beautiful, genious.

11:58pm: I stole from nymphetamosa


1. Smoked. [x]
2. Consumed alcohol. [x]
3. Slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex. [x]
4. Slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex. [x]
5. Kissed someone of the same sex. [] (although my friend claims she has kissed me, but I don't remember)
6. Had sex. [ ]
7. Had someone in your room other than family. [x]
8. Watched porn. [x]
9. Bought porn. [ ]
10. Done drugs. [ ]
TOTAL SO FAR: 6

1. Taken painkillers. [x]
2. Taken someone else's prescription medicine. []
3. Lied to your parents. [x]
4. Lied to a friend. [x]
5. Been to rehab. [ ]
6. Done something illegal. [x]
7. Cut yourself. [x] sort of, and non of the angst cutting thing, I just like it x)
8. Hurt someone. [x]
9. Been to a club. [x]
10. Seen someone die.[ ] I've seen a very recently drowned person?
TOTAL SO FAR: 13

1. Missed curfew. [x]
2. Stayed out all night. [ ]
3. Eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself. [x]
4. Been to a therapist. [ ]
5. Snuck out of the house. [x]
6. Dyed your hair. [x]
7. Received a ticket. [ ]
8. Been in an accident. [ ]
9. Wished someone to die. [ ]
10. Been to a bar.[x]
TOTAL SO FAR: 18

1. Been to a wild party. [ ]
2. Been to a Mardi Gras parade. [ ]
3. Drank more than four beers in a night. [ ]
4. Had a spring break in Florida. [ ]
5. Sniffed anything. [x]
6. Wore black nail polish. [x]
7. Wore arm bands. [x]
8. Wore t-shirts with band names. [x]
9. Listened to rap. [x]
10. Owned a 50 Cent CD. [ ]
TOTAL SO FAR: 23

1. Dressed Gothic. [ ]
2. Dressed prep.[x]
3. Dressed punk. [ ]
4. Dressed grunge. [ ]
5. Stole something. [x]
6. Been too drunk to remember anything. [ ]
7. Blacked out. [x]
8. Fainted. [x]
9. Had a crush on a neighbor. [x]
TOTAL SO FAR: 28

1. Snuck into someone else's room. [x]
2. Had a crush on your friend. [x]
3. Been to a concert. [x]
4. Dry-humped someone. [x]
5. Been called a slut. [x]
6. Called someone a slut. [x]
7. Installed speakers in your car.[ ]
8. Broken a mirror. [ ]
9. Showered at someone of the opposites sex's house. [ ]
10. Brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush. [x]
TOTAL SO FAR: 35

1. Consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper. [ ]
2. Seen an R-rated movie in theater. [x]
3. Cruised the mall. [x]
4. Skipped school. [ ] to go quee for a concert, a few times, but with teacher's permission
5. Had surgery. [xxx] DD:
6. Had an injury. [x]
7. Gone to court. [ ]
8. Walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping. [ ]
9. Caught something on fire. [x]
10. Lied about your age. [x]
TOTAL SO FAR: 41


1. Owned/rented an apartment.[ ]
2. Broke the law in the police's presence. [ ]
3. Made out with someone who had a gf/bf. [ ]
4. Got in trouble with the police. [ ]
5. Talked to a stranger. [x]
6. Hugged a stranger. [x]
7. Kissed a stranger. [ ]
8. Rode in the car with a stranger. [ ]
9. Been harassed. [x]
10. Been verbally harassed. [x]
TOTAL SO FAR: 45

1. Met face-to-face with someone you met online. [ ]
2. Stayed online for 5 hours straight. [x]
3. Talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight. [ ]
4. Watched TV for 5 hours straight. [x]
5. Been to a fair. [x]
6. Been called a bad influence. [x]
7. Drink and drive. [ ]
8. Prank-called someone. [x]
9. Laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex. [x]
10. Cheated on a test. [x]
TOTAL SO FAR: 52

-If You Have Less Then 10.. [I'm a Goody Goody.]
-If You Have More Than 10.. [I'm still a goody goody.]
-If You Have more Than 20.. [I'm average.]
-If You Have More Than 30.. [I'm a bad kid.]
-If You have more than 40.. [I'm a very bad influence.]
-If You Have more than 50.. [I'm a horrible person.]

I'm a horrible person, obviously :''D These tests make so much out of small things. I'm really a straight A's getting teacher's almost pet who hasn't even kissed anybody. And I didn't choose to have surgery, dammit :D
(any of the times >>)

10:35pm: I want people to be happier. I also want more clam chowder. I fell in love with it today, GOSH IT IS GOOD.
And then I want a lot more, like some magazines, NIIINII, to have my homework done, to have some life to actually post about, and to go home and to stay, to have inspiration for drawing more often, to actually do it, to have a holiday.

It's halloween soon. I'm gonna be candy.


I bought a cherrybag. The baby isn't going to sleep.
Love you all.
My stomach hurts and my throat.
( <3)

10:28pm: Dad is at home (homehome, not CA-home) and he showed us video, and I need to get back there. Ten months to go...

I don't need to put any effort into it, and after two months of being away, I can smell how my bed smelt (nothing specific, just kinda dusty cloth). I can feel the surface of our kitchen counters under my palms whenever I want to.

I never realized it before. Now all I want to do is press my head into my bedcovers and open the window above, and run my hands along the wall with the ripped-out paint in the places tape has been in.


Home sweet home.

8:28am: Happy birthday seinen_no!!

10:29pm: complaining for no real reason
We went to this sushi place, Kinya, again today :) Except today we ate there instead of taking the food home. I tried to ask the waiter for a recommendation, since I wanted to try something new, and he was like 'eehh, what, reco... rec?'. I was like, guh, why must the pretty pretty waiter who actually knows some English be off duty today. And then I took the Kinya favour which was basically rolls with shrimp tempura inside and this spicy tuna-mousse stuff on top, and a sauce that reminds me of mayonnaise, and GOD was it wonderful once again. We also had 'crunchy rolls' which were veery good. Again some shrimp tempura and ordinary shrimp and, some kind of crunch stuff. And then other things which were not that extraordinary, but good all the same.
At first we were like- we're not gonna be able to eat with the baby being a nuisance like this, but then he suddenly started behaving wonderfully, and when he wanted some sushi, he'd just hold the bowl out to mum or dad, and we'd howl from him being so cute :''D He dipped the rice he got in dad's cup of soysauce, and then he tried eating with chopsticks again :DD
And when we got sliced oranges afterwards, mum'd give them to him, and he'd put then on his toothpick like we did, and then eat the orange off it :'''''D

..blabla :D So basically if you ever visit Claremont and need to eat, go to Kinya sushi and have any rolls with shrimp tempura inside. (and next door you can find this really cheap mexican place which we go to like- two times a week XD, and down the road a bit you get nice smoothies)


Also, immunization crap today. I totally hate the system here. There was this crazy woman at the health care center, who spoke with this weird accent, and went on and on about how we need to get two hepatitis shots and a shot for chicken pox (wtf, you're SUPPOSED to catch that when you're young??! And me and my brother have already had it, which had to be proved, but how can we prove it since it's like a worse flue, you don't go to the doctor's for it in Finland??) So after two hours of fighting at the student services place dad only needed to sign a paper to verify it. Also, I'm not allowed to go to school before the results of my tuberculosis test come out. Jeesus christ. (it's like, 90% possible I have it, foh realzz, I'm so sick and all!)Luckily it's on Tuesday that they do, after which I have to go to the student services again, and then they'll decide if I need to get some other useless shots or if I'm allowed to go to their school. THEN I have to wait in line for ages and THEN I might be able to see the counselor (who will probably want to meet me for not being a native english speaker) and MAYBE make my scedual. And then I might get my student ID and my books, and be able to start school in say mid october. The thing is, we've been here for over a month, they were supposed to call us if there were any problems, which they didn't, and now I go to school to make a scedule and all this comes up.

And all the while they acted like we don't understand what they're trying to say, wild hand gestures and slow speach of course, because we're from omgz a different country and we probably carry the plague and bird flue without knowing about it. ("oh, is Finland a country in Latin America?")

The crazy nurse-woman though I was my brother's mum XD And no, not the baby's, but my older younger bother's, who is 1,8 years younger than me XDD


I got my birthday package from Hanna and Nini yesterday <3 It was awesome, Hanna had made this Sleeping Beauty-story of me with magazine clippings, and Nini'd gotten me a Aarikka Reindeer shirt, and they'd both written way cute letters and Nini'd drawn these beautiful pictures, and then there was a whole bunch of Finnish candy :D (who can resist melted Geisha XD)


I've had this huge urge to draw for the last like, two and a half hours, but everytime I think about doing it, I just go blank. I want to draw Natsuo from Loveless, and maybe Yoji with him, but I can't bring myself to do it ://

8:52pm: Sixflags was awesome :DD
The first attraction I went to, in honor of Tatsurou and his birthday today, was 'Tatsu', a cool rollercoaster. It was the most comfortable ride I've like ever been to, despite hanging in a horizontal position or it going in loops, no part of my body hurt even once, it was so cushiony and all. The Viper, on the contrary, totally killed my head D: But it was cool otherwise. It had like- seven loops, and a pretzel part!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TATSUROU and me :''D

The Riddler's Revenge was the best of the coasters I ('ve ever) visited, but then again I didn't go to Deja Vu or Scream. I'm going with Nini when she comes in december so we can go to them then :)

We were eating at this restaurant there and I ordered a special birthday-brownie, and when I got it, like six or seven of the staff members, and a moose-head on the wall, sang this awesome birthday song to me, and they took a picture of me and gave me this weird-moose-antler-straw-thing :D


Oh and then I owned the beanbag throwing thing where you had to get three blocks off a stool. I did it with my first throw :) Here's my win, big enough? XDD


All in all it was a great day :)
My presents (gotta mention this of course XD) kinda sucked, but I surprised myself by not minding the slightest.
Mum and dad asked me what I wanted, I told them a gift card to this store, and dad asked me if cash would be okay, I said yes. The only thing I asked for, and I didn't get one cent XD
I got this red bag, I've been wanting a red bag for ages, from mum and dad, and TA DAH, it was small and ugly. D: Not hideous, and I'll customize it a bit to look better, but still, no I can't get a nice red bag because I already have one. I got a pretty diary with elephants on the cover, nice, but I never even wrote in my old one. Maybe I'll get something done this time :D
Then I got this pretty elephant figure, which was I really like, and a pretty box from my brother, with a SATAN!duck inside, which cracked me up XD He also painted a Ritsuka-chibi from Loveless for me, and it was lovely <33
Then I got an ugly-ish t-shirt.
My package from Nini is yet to arrive though <3 She said she had bought me the same Aarikka-reindeer shirt which Plastic Tree wore at their concert. And Hanna, who always makes awesome thing for me herself, had sent me a package too :)
On second thought maybe they didn't suck that bad :D

1:27am: Frank shops for pants to eat. What do you shop for?



The episode of South Park today was hilarious. The end was like, wtf? Just when you were expecting everything to turn out okay (the kiddo team was beaten BAD in hockey, and one of the kids counting on them to win died because they didn't, since he had leukemia)
And that was it. Just, bam, end credits. The cancer child just said, no hope, no hope, and then they showed the winning team and played we are the champions, and it ended.
Nothing to be laughing at, but the timing, it just made me shriek in laughter, yeah. XD

They must have studied this. Timing like that, perfect.

1:17am: It's awesome to notice that, since I moved here about three weeks ago, and started working out again, a bit, I've actually gotten in better shape. I can do a good twenty crunches more than then, even more if I really try, and I at least look like I've lost a little from around my stomach, and carrying two gallons of milk in one hand doesn't really feel like much at all.

:)

I've gotten all self concious after being introduced to full body mirrors, so it's a great relief.


And, FINALLY, after searching like, everywhere, I found a GOOD book on how to draw people. Clothes on, because the books on drawing nude people are useless as it is quite easy are only about anatomy, as in, HOW TO DRAW BONE NUMBER 208 IN YOUR INDEX TOE OF THE RIGHT FOOT. But now, I have a guide to drawing clothes (and cloths!), which I suck at, and drawing figures at the same time. Hoorah! I have to go study it. It's detailed, but still not in the way that the text is awfully dull to read. And the pictures are good, and just the right size, and the are awesome examples on how to execute things.

I love the borders in Montclair. I could straight off just buy the whole store, dammit.

11:02am: where the cactuses are greener
CALIFORNIA. Omg.


It's hot in there despite all the fan-action, and the house is huge.
I have two bathrooms nearly to myself! I have a whole wing of the house, actually, which includes a mini-kitchen, my [crappy] room, the study, and a bathroom WITH A TUB ZOMG.
And then there's a tv-room next to the kitchen next to my room and the other bathroom, and there's a huge space and the living room and then another wing with mum and dad's room at the end, their bathroom, Samu's room and Sippo's room.

I haven't been out much yet, we only went to the market and to pick up some chinese after we arrived yesterday. [twelve hours of sleep after that]

The baby is right at home, which is awesome, he keeps running around and laughing and he loves all these gadgety-toys they have here. We get to eat in peace, without him at the table!

He behaved very well in the plane :) He slept through the Helsinki-London-flight, and I looked after him during most of the [eleven-hour] flight. He must have slept for something like four hours though. People kept thinking I'm his mum, which amused us to no end XD
The flight attendants were awesome too, there was this totally gay one who was really nice, and this older lady who saw me drawing and obviously liked it really much, and she asked me if I go to art school/if I'm too young to go yet and am planning to do so, and then she wanted to show the drawing to some of the other crew members :D

There are dozens of lizards here, and nearly no insects! Wonderful compared to all the mosquitoes in Finland. There's are hills behind our back yard, I'll post pictures of them and from them after I've gone to 'explore' :D


Now we're off to see the centrum, and I get to see my new school :)

Cheers :D

4:50pm: D'espairsRay live


:33 Karyu is such a babe.
Nini took this video with my camera at Ruisrock. (7/7/2007)

12:41pm: tagged by sani

List seven songs you are into right now, no matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're not any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now. Post these instructions in your LiveJournal along with your seven songs. Then tag seven other people to see what they're listening to.

1. Artman by Kra
my friend sent me this song yesterday, and I was all blegh, Kra sucks, but listened to it, and Kra still sucks but now I can't stop listening to it *___*<3

2. Chizuru by Gazette
Uhm, it's a beautiful song.

3. Binetsu shita de shajitsu shita shinsou ha atesaki fumei no te... by Rentrer en Soi
newest Rentrer en Soi obsession after listening 700+ times to Karasu iro no taiji :3

now in order for the rest not to be songs by MUCC..

4. Yasashii Uta by MUCC
nostalgic and pretty and happy and whatev. This is probably my favorite song off the whole list

5. Libra by MUCC

6. Dancing Queen by ABBA
this was my class' last song together (we were together for seven years)

7. Nocturne (I guess it's sometimes called Ruislintu or smthn)
I sing this as a lullaby to my baby brother. Lovely song, based on Eino Leino's poem.


I suppose there aren't seven people on my friends list who haven't done this, and to be honest I'm not even sure who of you have done it :D
So I tag,

nymphetamosa
himrahid
funkyasscartoon
funanya (not gonna see this entry now, are you)
ekucbbw
altair_vega
sorrosa

Enjoy.

12:05am: EDIT// My diva-biatch, oh how I love youz :D



I have pirates of the caribbean background music stuck in my head. I didn't know that's possible XD

..I'm a hopelessly happy person. My brain dulls when I have something to be depressed about, and instead of being sad I'm constantly warm and appear tired. I guess it's a good thing XD

11:39pm: This journal is now half friendslocked since I figured I don't care what people see, but I lj is complicated so I'm not gonna edit most of the entries no one would care about anyway. I realized today that at least the people who I'd like to care certainly don't.


I love how lj works with embarrassing teenage emoness that can't be spoken out loud. This is way more fun then keeping a diary though, because I won't lose this like I would a book.

5:32pm: Ooh I've never done this before. And am positive you've never seen it before.

Comment to this entry and I'll.. Ta-dah:

1 - Tell you why I friended you.
2 - Associate you with something - fandom, a song, a color, a photo, a sexual position, etc. (Or, not)
3 - Tell you something I like about you.
4 - Tell you a memory I have of you.
5 - Associate you with a character/pairing.
6 - Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
7 - Tell you my favorite user pic of yours.
8 - In return, you must post this in your LJ if you want to.

In case your interested I grabbed it from ekucbbw, but I first commented to himrahid's similar entry.

4:09pm: I read most the stuff on this journal today, and I sound so... my age XD

Someone depress me quick so I can get inspired to write an essay on Kersti Bergroth for finnish class.
Whenever I may start doing things for school, I end up (unintentionally) re-writing finishing them on the last night or the morning before I go to school. Last week I did a whole project on Descartes AT school on the day I had to present it to class.. hrm. The teacher did say it was good at least?


I want to reapply for highschools to go to Torkkeli, a school in Helsinki specializing in art. They had the coolest courses >___>
Considering how much I like to/ am able to wake up early, maybe it's good that I didn't though, I would have had to take two buses or the train and the subway to get there. Would have been quite expensive to do that every day too.

I'm looking for ideas for a dress. I have like.. one dress for the summer, and I don't think I'd dare use it anywhere else than on the beach anymore. Anyone reading, feel free to contribute with suggestions :D Although I won't probably get anything done anyway, and 'll just end up buying one from H&M. Which sucks.

7:29am: MUCCMUCCMUCCMUCC *__*
Are the awesomest live band ever. (okay maybe there are two or three better but anywhoo)

( So I come with a pic spam (not from the consert ;__;) )

I might have a few more but now I'm late for school.
I hugged them all and am like wooooah *_____*

And last, I didn't think these are good enough to be watermarked, but THEY ARE MINE!
DON'T REPOST WITHOUT ASKING, which really isn't hard at all and I always give permission (if one credits).

9:09pm: ♥
It's funny how rarely I hate myself, and now I do without even having done anything specific.

I SUCK.

,and am a bit happier now.


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9:15pm: This is dumb, but it has been bothering me since they put out the new layout...


>>http://www.ayabie-web.com/pc/top/index.html
Please, somebody, tell me just what the fuck is Kenzo reading XD